Escaping Years

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Directly after High School, I went to College to Study Chiropractic, but I was Young and Unfocused and after 3 years, of a 7-year course, I quit.

I spent the rest of my 20s working in various Service Industry Jobs.

Lack of Achievement, Midlife Crisis, Distractions, Self Doubt, Change.

At 29 I discovered Yoga, got fully into it and began Teaching a year later.

I’ve been doing that for the last 12 years.

Lack of Achievement, Midlife Crisis, Distractions, Self Doubt, Change.

Now, the thing about Yoga; It’s one of the most effective Body/Emotion/Mind-Hacks out there;

You can get yourself out of a Bad Mood in a few Minutes, you can Flush Out Days of Tension, but it doesn’t pay for Shit!!!

As many of you, who Exchange Time for Money know, There’s a limit to how much you can work in a week and if you’re not working, you’re not earning.

Teaching Yoga is a very Chilled-Lifestyle, but you have all this Free Time on your hands, with very little Extra Money to enjoy it with.

I Spent Years living on Lotto-Dreams, I can tell you in detail how to spend $10M, all the things I would do, places I would go, things I would buy… This Dream-Life kept me distracted from the lack of fulfillment I felt in my Real Life for a short time.

Lack of Achievement, Midlife Crisis, Distractions, Self Doubt, Change.

I got stuck in Conspiracy Theories for a while, you name it, I was into it! Aliens, Secret Societies that Control the World, 9/11, Chemtrails, Ancient Aliens…

Any of you that have been into these things know, it’s a Black Hole which sucks you in. It’s Addictive!

Lack of Achievement, Midlife Crisis, Distractions, Self Doubt, Change.

Then I got into News & Politics, Social Welfare & Environment, all important Subjects, but not if they pull you away from Living your Life!


A year ago I started Gymming seriously and it’s been amazing to see they physical change in my Body, but not just that, more importantly, the change in my Mind and my ability to push through the difficult parts;

I have more Endurance, Commitment & Determination than I Thought I had.

Lack of Achievement, Midlife Crisis, Distractions, Self Doubt, Change.

I’ve been trying to understand what the last 25 Years have been about?

Why have I been sitting on the Sidelines of Life?


I’m currently reading “The Motivation Manifesto” by Brendon Burchard:

“Many people want something better for themselves - their ambition is alive and well - but they still do not feel motivated. Why?

Because despite the hope for something more, they don’t believe it can happen, or that they can make it happen…”


And that’s me to a T;

I don’t Believe that I am able to make by Dreams Real,

there’s a deeply held Mistrust and Misbelief in my Ability to Stick it Through and Make Things Happen,

so I Sit and Watch Other’s Live Their Lives!

Lack of Achievement, Midlife Crisis, Distractions, Self Doubt, Change.

This lack of Belief in Self, stems from a Deeply Felt sense of not Feeling Good Enough, a sentiment I think Many of us Share. It’s a Feeling that never goes away.

For some people, it Spurs them to Action, for others it has a Castrating Effect, for me it had the latter.


I’m almost 43, and one thing I don’t Believe in is Regret.

I think it’s Important to Mourn the Loss of Youth, but it is Gone and will never be back.

So, Now What?


I am left with Two Choices:

- Stay sitting on the Sidelines or


- Start to Change these Negative Self-Beliefs, Practically, Through Experience.

The Only Way to See Yourself differently is to Experience Yourself differently. You cannot Change the Mind with the Mind, it only Changes with Changed-Experience.

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