"I have a lot of my adult life trying to write about something, whatever, but for one reason or another, I haven’t done it... I mean, to write something beyond a creative content or one or two articles. People say that in life we must do three things: plant a tree, have a child and write a book, well, I've already planted three trees, and they're growing big, and beautiful. I also have two wonderful children, although I have to admit that sometimes I would like to hang them (it is easier to live with a tree, sincerely!). And, as if that were not enough, I have survived and been reborn from what could have been an unexpected death.
Me, Woman, more than to pretend to be a book that would solve all of your problems – not at all, believe me, only you have the solution- I would like it to be an ally in your sleeplessness or a little piece of heaven among so much that you have had to live ... I do not presume, far from it, to be the great answer to all your questions, I just want to share my story, what I've lived, and if it helps you, even if it's a little bit, then I am grateful! I want to share my reasons and my motives that have brought me here, and how much I still have to go and to do and to be! hopefully! I do not know about you, but I want to die in my bed, asleep, old woman, surrounded by grandchildren and without any pain. So be it!
Through so many experiences, which according to me "I did not ask", but that I did attract to myself, now I know, life took me by surprise and I just lost myself in the way... but now I understand that I am the result of everything I have thought and above all, of everything I have sense and felt, that I am the result of all my emotions combined, although many times I did not want to see it, or I saw it when it was too late. Me, Woman... an open book, with the soul and the bare heart looking to be a ray of light, maybe, I hope, in your dark room. I would love to think that through these lines you will laugh, you will cry, that I will accompany you in some way, that I will help you feel a little, even if it is a little better ... And I do not know, maybe, I will help you to be a better version of you, for you ... to you. I want to think that it will be like that. Because life is beautiful because it's worth living because you're not superwoman nor a clown for anyone that you “have to make happy”. Because you deserve it. Because every moment counts and is a conquest. Because your past does not define you. Because your power is here and now, inside you, not in your children, not in your parents, or in your partner, not even in your friends. It's you, it is me. You, invincible woman, incredible person, beautiful, free, strong, tender, intelligent, creative, mom, grandmother, no children, married, divorced, stayed, reunited ... always loved, always you, that person who you allow forgetting, that you were lost among so many attempts to please the other, but that was never enough! Remember who you are. Find your way again. Redefine yourself."
Abstract: "Me Woman. I want. I can. I deserve"
Yo, Mujer. Quiero Puedo Merezco.
Spanish Version, Ebook, and Printed Version.
I started writing this book many years ago, it started as an escape, a way of expressing the pain and all the things that I was passing through: sickness, divorce, no money on my pocket... but it really started getting shape last summer, to be more specific, on July 2017, when my son got into the hospital for three weeks and almost died of a disease that now we know that is similar to the one I have (ironic!). Life is made of contrast, that I know now! during his crisis, at the same very moment that he was suffering, I was closing the deal with my publisher, and from the ashes, this book was born. But that story, I will tell you in another post. He's safe now, by the way, starting to play football and enjoying every single minute of his twelve years old, he is taking care of himself, he is learning how to live with his condition...
The point is, you have two choices, always two choices, not three, not one, but two, you can choose to see the bright side or the dark side of every single thing that happens to you. It's your choice to be happy or not, no matter what. You can blame others for your situation, your couple, your country, the job that you have but hate, or you can start being responsible for all your decisions. As I told you, life is amazing. And it is not attacking you, it is only responding to you, to your vibes.
You can be anyone you want, you can have anything you want, you can co-create the life of your dreams. You just need to really really really want to do it and start believing in yourself. Don't let fear get in your way! Breath and let go.