This article hopefully inspires you to stop worrying about your current position in life!

Pick your action to satisfaction.

You most of the time no what could make you happy when you are unhappy with your current situation. From a movie called The Secret I remembered the Law of Attraction.

In a nutshell the law of attraction describes how your thoughts effect your life.

Thinking positive was given to me from early age I do only remember I really wanted and actually tried to quit when I got Ill (depressed), so badly without knowing why or for what reason.

The first 21 years have been a "Joyride" to me. Sure there were downs, and small desease like returning stomach achings, a little cold here and there - no serious stuff, but nothing would have taking my inner positivity and wish to entertain others with my music or simply as a person motivating them in what ever there were trouble about.

But shortly after marrying at that age of 21 i got depressed for the first time.

In Short: My partner was great in herself - but too heavy for me.

In these times I could only guess for what reasons I got depressed. But couldn't see ways or actions to get out and up on my positive thinking "walk in life" again.

I was raised with the focuse on keeping up a promise. Especially the BIG promise to stay with your partner until - you guess it.

And I tried.

After about 7 month being unable to follow my passions, I was able to work again and things seemed to work out better - but still I had this feeling of going the wrong way.

After 3 years I got depressed again stopping smoking gunja that I did for about 6 years in a row to start baby planning - made me nuts! And I mean it. I was not able to control myself at all and got violent upon my ex-wife. Gladly she survived and forgave me without any more actions from her side.

But we divorced.

I believe she knew that it was not me - really doing this. I know that I could do any different - went to hospital and with a help of a friend sent to an psychiatric hospital for a couple of weeks by myself being torchured by voices and visions.

An effect turning off the htc? Anyway it was horrible but I knew it will stop one day.

Because i was no danger to myself or others I was permitted to leave the hospital.

I lived a couple of days at a friends house and went back to my parents for nearly 4 years from 2000 to Januarary 2004 being unable to talk in REAL scale of mine.

A tough time for everyone around me, everyone remembering me as an open an happy, positively thinking and behaving person.

Stoned or soaber - everyday!!

One day I also got the chance to smoke one joint in that time of horror and I felt a little better.

This one "test back i tried everything docs told me experience" in 2002 was dramatic and telling me: IF ONLY THIS STUFF CAN MAKE ME FEEL BETTER - IT IS AND HAS NEVER BEEN GOOD FOR ME AS WELL.

So since then, I never smoked another joint again.

"I will be open to take action on advice and all time, yes, all help needed to be ME again - no matter how hard this will be.

So I'm deeply Grateful for anyone helping me out in that days.

Even though I am singing and talking about Gratitude, everyone needs to make his and her own experiences.

Some catch up this thought from day 1 others need to go through "near death experiences or overcome bad desease, lose some one they love or go through something so wonderful and miraculous to being gratulf for everyday in life , everything they already have.

Who cares? I know you care! How do I know? I want it this way:)

A "my Life Changing Action to Satisfaction"

I got back on feet after communicating with one doctor at a day clinic I was able to go to about leaving my parents home and getting a flat for my home with the help from the welfare.

I knew this would be the hardest thing ever because I felt like dying every single day during these "nearly 4 years" but I knew in somehow I had to change something radically.

So,I did.

It took 3 month and suddenly words came to my mind: Our soul - and more words for me to write down. I talked to the big spirit or my inner voice call it what you want- "Can I really write this down should I? YES and YES do it have been the answer!

In just 4 days I wrote down about 12 poems in music song text/words style, I was used to and started to read them out to my closest family in Hamburg and Berlin and family in London.

Doing that was heavy lifting for me, because it took me so much mental power to just talk. Now reading was another huge challenge.

They liked it - may be because of simply hearing my voice.

I was forced or unconscious thoughts driven to do all this again. There was no way out stopping - my aunt in london asked me to write a book, but I knew that I didn't know about anyone to carry it along so I remembered my joy, and SATISFACTION to songwriting and singing.

The next Action to Satisfaction

Not thinking too much but taking action, I picked my old hohner professional se-35 (a "borrowed for lifetime gift" from a former producer of mine - (Adrian I will play this until I die or you want it back :-) thank you so much for being you!!)

and started composing songs around these 12 poems.

AND MADE THE CLEAR DECISION:

When I have them ready I will get a semi-acoustic guitar find all places in hamburgs that allow/want singer-songwriters to perform and just do that.

I did and made wonderful experiences.

For more information about and to listen to the songs of my first "depressions breaker singer-songwriter album No Revenge please visit my website: http://oodmusic.info

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